Sliding Into the Rabbit Hole

from The Last Unicorn Tarot  CARD ONE The High Priestess meaning: It represents intuition, inner wisdom, the subconscious mind, and the mysteries of the unknown ...trust your gut CARD TWO The Magician meaning: represents manifestation, resourcefulness, power, and inspired action .  Numbered one, it signifies new beginnings and the bridge between the spiritual and physical realms. CARD THREE The Fool meaning: means new beginnings, innocence, spontaneity, and taking a leap of faith into the unknown .  It shows a fresh start, pure potential, and excitement for life,  but it can also warn against acting too reckless AS USUAL: leap of faith, trust yourself, make it happen TRY! Or as Dory says, "Just keep swimming!"

 Apparently sometime soon I am getting my inheritance from pop and I will have to sort things so it doesn't mess up my ODSP. I am getting a little bit excited and thinking I can either FIX or get a NEW laptop, transfer whatever work I still have, purchase the new ultimate writer planner I keep seeing and transfer all my stuff into it and get back to WORK!! I just don't know if I will continue or just fall back into the FUNK. I am NOT in the DEEP BLUE FUNK. But I have been skirting the edge of it for a very long while and I have a hard time motivating myself. I AM depressed. Life changed after Nancy and pop died and I just don't know how to make myself care anymore. FUN FACT: I DON'T CARE! I am trudging along doing my thing and not doing a lot of the things, but not exactly giving up all hope either. ONE DAY AT A TIME. I can't do better. BUT... TODAY is a hopeful day.