Bahhh
Yes I am depressed. No I don't want to talk about it. It is what it is. At least I am breathing.
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Fairy Tale Reading
I chose a fan spread. So... The ship (a journey) is book Key words: secrets, studies knowledge I feel: Be open and learn Brings luck (clover) which is heart Key words: love, passion, attraction I feel: find your passion In the form of a message (rider) which is snake Key words: cheating, betrayal, manipulation I feel: be careful and watch A woman will be the messenger which is clouds Key words: depression, confusion, sadness (Story of my life) I feel: follow the light to a brighter path *Not totally sure if it's clear or confusing but it is probably my usual, pay attention, watch, learn, be careful and find the light.*
Just another hit...
Income tax to pay bills and it is already gone so we are back to the daily struggle. Every day it gets harder and I keep being reminded just why I have given up. And then... My laptop I have only had for a year won't work so I had to go steal my old one back from my son so I could at least still play my game. All (most of...whatever is on my Evernote I still have so thank you #evernote) my files...GONE...or stuck on a laptop that won't start. Note to self...buy a regular laptop not a cheap one no matter it is purple!!! SO today's opinion (which is often my usual opinion) life sucks, and then you die. I am just so TIRED!
Things I Used to DO
So...I had a long list of things to work on to amuse myself, to work my brain to be productive and to feel useful. I have put them all aside. I still have story in my head (book series I have been working on for years-(I have been too ambitious)), I was also working on an alphabet series that was coming along but I put it aside too. I have been making fairy/gnome/mermaid gardens but last year I did none of them. I also was doing little poetry/journals with some of my over 400 poems included...also set aside. Then there are housekeeping tasks like cleaning and organizing and such that have been started and half finished and ignored, mainly because I can't do all the stuff I used to do in one day and over time I just lose momentum for getting it done. In addition there are still more things that run constantly in my brain and basically overwhelm me. I have decided to live life one day at a time but the result is that I can't handle stress at all now. Having said all that I am li...
