Things I Used to DO

 So...I had a long list of things to work on to amuse myself, to work my brain to be productive and to feel useful.

I have put them all aside.

I still have story in my head (book series I have been working on for years-(I have been too ambitious), I was also working on an alphabet series that was coming along but I put it aside too. I have been making fairy/gnome/mermaid gardens but last year I did none of them. I also was doing little poetry/journals with some of my over 400 poems included...also set aside.

Then there are housekeeping tasks like cleaning and organizing and such that have been started and half finished and ignored, mainly because I can't do all the stuff I used to do in one day and over time I just lose momentum for getting it done.

In addition there are still more things that run constantly in my brain and basically overwhelm me.

I have decided to live life one day at a time but the result is that I can't handle stress at all now.

Having said all that I am living in a low space and honestly the reason is because I have been skirting the edge for a long while now and it amounts to the fact that I am just in survival mode.

I don't think people can live there for a long time but I have no idea how to find another path...well I understand the words and concepts but I really have no idea which choice to make, hence this blog.

Somehow I'm hoping to find my path before I don't have time for anymore choices.